start over again
roses pressed into the hand, check for the thorns. a kiss at the neck, shy away from the teeth. if you close your eyes it can still get you. if you hide under the covers you will still be found. all your defences, all your precautions don't help and have never helped. count the words, adjust the sentence until the syllables are multiples of five. heart in your throat - when bile rises swallow it back down again.
look for four leaf clovers and don't find a single one.
believe in magic and the stories written in your books. dream of being whisked away and break your little heart when you're not.
wish on the stars with all your heart, pray to a god that needs you on your knees to hear you.
believe in something until you can believe in nothing at all.
words are always barbed, kindness always laced with something. if it's not; you're not paying enough attention. listen up. if you're not ready and it gets you; it's your fault. if you are ready and it gets you; you did your best.